Self Belief
I think I have this weird sense of self belief in part because I’m a middle child. A forgotten child. I’m sure not all middle children feel the same, or even grow up the same. But with four brothers and a much older sister, I was, for the most part, the forgotten one who lived in a world of her own.
I was a dreamer wandering a fantastical landscape of my own imagination where I could be both a super hero one minute, and a whale the next. No wonder I never heard my mother half the time when she called my name. I was Ultra Man fighting a monster from the depths of the ocean, or Superman brandishing my x-ray vision to see inside a building, or Wonder Woman battling some bad guy with my shield, sword, and lariat of truth.
I wandered through fields of dandelions thinking they were fairy artillery, chasing butterflies who were secretly ridden by pixies being dive-bombed by dragonflies whose riders were a rival clan.
I talked with crows, sang with skylarks, and watched swifts and swallows endlessly skim ponds and streams, while I fished for minnows with my hands, and asked frogs what flies tasted like.
As a forgotten child, I’ve lived a very full life. A wondrous life.
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